As I sit here in my chair watching the news of another crime against African Americans my body is stiff, my arms are frozen at my side, my eyes are wide open because I cannot believe what I am seeing, my legs are shaky, so I can’t stand up and my heart rate has risen like a helium balloon. What should I do?
I know I am supposed to do something, but my thoughts are bungled in my head. The outraged is boiling over. I have been taught not to hate even when it’s clear I should. I was taught to pray when I experience situations out of my control, Give it to God is the phrase. I was told Churches and Schools were safe havens from violence and drugs. I see the signs before I enter the school zone. The Church is a place of worship where you can learn about your faith and get closer to GOD.
But hold a minute, there are more massive shootings today at Churches and Schools across the country than ever before, I’m confused, I was told to stay off the corners and out of bars late night because of the danger that can arise. I was told to go to school and get a good education. I was told always be involved in a faith base church. I was taught never to lose faith, but when I go to bed I keep waking up to another story of violence in our community; it seems like a never ending nightmare. There seems to be NO answers from our elected leaders, parents, teachers, pastors, friends or anybody.
What should I do? What should you do?